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What do you want to be when you grow up?

March 2, 2010

Does everybody know the answer to this question, or is it the way I think it is; one of those journeys of self discovery that really has no final destination. Do we really want to be just one thing or are we looking to be one thing at a time? That of course is pretty much impossible since just about all of us fill several different roles at any given time……take me for instance, in terms of relationships, I’m a husband, a father, a brother, an uncle, a cousin, a nephew, a friend… get the picture. Not all of us, however want to change those things, and, with the exception of one or two of them, we can’t.

The role that most of us would like to change and which seems the most difficult, relates to our careers. What do we wake up every morning and risk our lives on the roadways to do? Why do we subject ourselves to the company of people we would otherwise run away from screaming, for hours at a time? Well, ok, we need the money. Thing is though, I think for many of us that is the only answer.

Take me for instance. For all intents and purposes, I am an accountant. Pretty much all the jobs I’ve held have been related to some accounting function or the other. Do I like accounting? Do I get goose pimples whenever I open a spreadsheet (actually I do, but mostly its because I’m never sure what my laptop will do). But you get my drift. So what was my crime, you ask, for which I am paying such a high price?

Believe it or not, it all started when I was a small child, and committed the unforgivable sin of showing a teensy weensy bit of intellectual ability above the average….(now that I think about it, a bunch of the “absolute idiots” I went to school with, who have no degrees, now own their own businesses or are otherwise living lives and doing stuff they actually want to do). Hmmmm, do you think they were just pretending……….naaaaaahhhhh!!!!

The thing is that I firmly believe that we are born with a purpose. Now you need to follow the next couple of lines closely since they contain my rather simplified view of life, and are “the answer to life, the universe, and everything” (not sure if that is plagiarism or anything, but just to cover my bases, it comes from the title of a Douglas Adams novel). Anyway, like I said, I believe you are born with with a purpose. If that is the case, it means that there is something that you are already naturally capable of excelling at. It is the thing that excites you, the thing that occupies your mind when you should be focusing on that spreadsheet. Yes you may need training, yes you will need help, yes there will be bumps along the way as you try to do the thing you were born to do, but I believe that doing that thing, is the only way to guarantee that, when you get to the end of your time on earth, and you turn around and look back at where you’ve been and what you’ve done, you can go on your way with a contented sigh.

Anyway, don’t mind me……..I’m just thinking out loud.


Finding Me

March 2, 2010

Ok so I decided to try my hand at this blogging thing. I’m thinking at the least it is an opportunity for me to see if I possess any writing skills, but if I’m really fortunate, I may find myself at the end of a journey of self-discovery that, if I were to admit it, I have been on for a very long time. Of course, more likely than not, it will be something in between. Oh well, here goes…….
So I figure I’ll go for the jugular and start with the whole self-discovery thing. That seems like a very noble goal doesn’t it? Well I, in fact, do think that to be a very noble goal. Trouble with goals though, noble or otherwise is that they are pretty easy to set; the loftier the easier, world peace and all of that, but when it comes to actually doing the thing……..well, that’s another matter. According to Mr. Shakespeare, “there’s the rub”. Hence, here we are.
To tell the truth, this is kinda scary, because if I am to succeed in “finding me”, I’ll have to probably talk about things that I have absolutely refused to face up to before. Not sure I’m ready to do that as yet though. Its a good thing this blog isn’t only about self discovery, but about pretty much anything that pops into my mind. This could get very interesting because a lot of stuff pops into my mind.

To anyone who actually reads this, I hope you’re patient with me. If you’re not patient that’s fine too, this is after all about me. Talking about myself is not something I do easily. As you’ve probably guessed by now, you’re not about to be privy to any of my deep dark secrets just yet. Yeah, I chickened out…..Oh well, so much for the jugular. This ended up being more like a head fake.

Despite my cowardice ( I had a friend who told really corny jokes and he used to say that “coward ice” was ice that was afraid to melt….really, it wasn’t me who said it)I hope you hang in there with me as, every so often (whatever that means), I get back to the whole search for self deal.

I guess you could look at this whole blog thing as me ……thinking out loud.

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